motivation come to me please :(

I just want to stag goodbye to blogging for one month. Yes i must study hard now, my school final exam on next Monday and my final exam two one month again. I must prepare myself seriously especially on my math and physics. I try to love them, i must study hard i just want to make my parents proud of me i don't want make my parents disappointed of me. I try to give my best, i try study more and more, i will make my dream come , nothing can stop me to achieve my success, during GOD allow me i will do my best actually i boring or tired i my try more more and more.


I just want to make 10,00 on my final exam, yes i love english and i must show with my best. On my last try out i only got 84,00 :( because no more try out from school so i can show it on my try out at ssc, but i'm not sure that i can get my best mark because if ssc held try out it has 2,5 hours for 2 subjects. I try to do my best i want to show to everyone that i can.

I want to do max on my final exam because with do max i can enjoy my holiday, and i think if i study hard know i will not nervous on time when holiday, i can do anything to refresh my brain. I try to love this because if i read my friends blog who have been studied at college they miss their JHS or SHS so i try to love this because it's only happen once of three years. I believe that I can, my GOD always bless me do my best and GOD will do in the rest do what i must to do and GOD do appropriate his way.

But what i need now? I need some motivation that my english teacher always give to me, yes on my course there's one of my english teacher always give me motivation and that make me more spirit. I want he teach my class again, but 2 times when my time to study english he's not in my course he still in other course. I really really need motivation. I really want he teach in my class againn he only taught me two times from  seven meeting. I am not need hanging out, shopping, watching movie, reading novel, etc but i want motivation, when my counseling teacher give motivation in my class? My teacher give me task social, civics, i try to finished it one by one but if there's teamwork how i can finish it if from 4 people only two do it ?